preference parity

Preference, whether in equivalence or in absence had always been a headsplitting situation for me.

I believe that we cannot live without reason(s), sorta like i cannot make a decision without a reason - or preference. i remembered when buying lunch yesterday, i had a bag of Doritos' Nacho Cheesier in my left hand, and a bag of Doritos Spicier Nacho in my right. After which i stood still there staring down at them for what seems like an eternity of uncertainty. and for a moment, i was totally spaced out, hoping that maybe time would just stop for a bit while i pull myself out of the trance.

i need a distint preference, a solid reason, before i can make a decision to go for the Cheesier or the Spicier. I simply cannot take a random pick.

indecisive. . . ?